Saturday, April 23, 2005
oLa~ today i feel so much pressured.. i thought my life was going on just fine.. but NOididnt.. at the beginning of the day was fine.. everything when as per normal until after mother tongue lesson... i heard some people gossiping Huiling.. i felt angry and frustrated at the same time.. i mean as a frend i do feel for her.. i dont wan to mention names here coz everything is settled now.. im happy for them.. its all abt misconception.. when Huiling they all were settling their problems i was in front of the class with Prada n Carlos playing with the whiteboard marker.. drawing all the shit here and there.. i didnt wan to get involved coz it wasnt my problem.. its like i dont haf the rite to be there.. at the same time.. Prada talked to me abt sumting... sumthing in which i am totally confused abt it rite now.. i dont knw whether im in the wrong or rite... my head is spinning rite now... everything is going so fast... memories of the past come back rushing to me.. argh! i cant take it animore!! why muz my life turn out to be like this? i am happy with my life now.. i haf everything i haf.. Him... Frends... they fullfill my needs.. but Huiling told me to do watever i feel.. dont do things just bcoz im pressured by other ppl.. i knw they r juz trying to help me but i dont think i can think straight rite now.. sorry guys.. i dont think im myself today.. argh!!! after all this happened i had my POP rehearsal.. haiz.. so tiring.. since i was the onli sec 5 girl there.. i didnt haf ani frends.. so i sat alone quietly.. skali theres this voice saying "sorang je cik kak..." it sounds so farmiliar.. so i turned.. eh guess who?! it was A.. hehe.. i turned and he smiled at me.. so cute!!! im gald that nowadays he is more daring to talk to me... yipee!!! from tat moments onwards.. my mood changed.. i felt so happy.. kept smiling all the way like an insane person.. the rehearsal ended at ard 5pm.. i waited for Prada.. i didnt knw tat shes was outside.. so carlos come n fetch me...we went out and talk with Ms Lee... do wat girls love to do.. ahakz.. i went home at ard 630pm.. in the buz again Prada n i talked abt it.. haiz.. so stressful... after wat happen i tink i juz wan to
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