Wednesday, July 06, 2005
Yesterday was a bad day for me and today is even worst. Why must all this happen now? What wrong did i do to deserve all this shit? Firstly I got to knw A's ex contacted him back. I dont know whether I myself want to believe this or take it as if it is nothing. Then just now i got to know that he's in hospital because of his leg. I dont think he is being warded. Lets hope he wont be. Anyway I will always be praying the best for him. Wish him a speedy recovery.
As for me and him. Maybe I should just wait for him? Should i? Its very difficult for me. Its hard to find a guy like him. I have fallen for him deeply. Nah.. maybe its just me and my love life. A total failure. Maybe im just being paranoid. Argh! Im sick of thinking of this. It makes my head ache even more. I should let him do all the decision. If he have the heart, Im sure he'll make the right one. Whatever hes decision is, I will respect it.
Once again, Im DEPRESSED!

{5:52 AM}