I realize that being in relationship is not as easy as you think. It's fun to have it but it's not easy to maintain it.
If you have it with a patient guy, you are somehow safe as he tries to save the relationship when something goes wrong otherwise you're a goner.
We girls sometimes think that we too are trying to save the relationship from breaking but instead of doing that, we tend to break it even more. Making the whole thing worst than ever. And the worst thing, you thought that you are doing the right thing. And when you think that you are doing the right thing, it's either not enough or it's totally wrong. I'm telling you it's not as easy as u think. It's about understanding each other deep deep deeper. Very deep that it may get a little complicated. Who am I kidding?! It gets super complicated. You have to think about the guys ego and us being not-too-over-protective. You know that kinda things. Things about whether or not your partner will like it or totally disagrees but pretend everything is okay. All these little signs u have to know and react to it. As for me, I'm super duper slow in these things. So ya go figure. Looking at those people having relationships makes me think on how they handle things. Do they take things seriously? Do they fight about what I've gone through or both of them just give up and break? I respect my parents generation on how they hold on their marriage for many many years, we can see already how our generation is going to be like. Just look at the relationships, small fight = break ups. Haish. And i really respect my bf for being so patient with me even though i got on his nerves all the time. Suddenly everything just side track abit. I'm tired from all the raining in my face. Gonna go take a nap. So good night everyone.

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